Chapter 1 - Maya

Chapter 1 - Maya

It is midnight. It is always the same moon; the white round of ethereal light, shines through the open window caressed by the soft dance of the white curtain. The light breeze brought in the coldness of night and the voice that carries the sad melody sounded as otherworldly as the persona herself

Di bawahnya sinar bulan terang purnama
Air mataku menitis bagaikan embun
Melihat dikau melangkah tinggalkan semua
Ke alam yang baru begitulah jalanan hidupmu

Why do you always sing that song?
Whispered a childishly sweet voice to the reflection in the mirror
Untuk mengingatkan diriku tentang kisah lalu
Replied by a voice, so soft like a zephyr whispered to the girl sitting by the window
Don’t ever leave me, tell me what to do, to ease your pain

The same sweet smile didn’t reassure the doubts. It’s painful not to know the reasons behind despair.

Don’t protect me. Ignorance is not what I seek even though I know how blissful it is not to know. Neither I am too naïve nor weak not to do justice for you! Why came to me when you don’t trust me?
Masanya akan tiba pabila kau bersedia untuk menerima aku sepenuhnya, Maria.
When is the time yet to come? I’m prepared to be awakened, Maya. Or is it pity that stopped you?
Kau akan hilang, Maria. Hilang dan mati di dalam aku. Bukan belas kasihan atau simpati yang menghalang aku.
Love stops you? We will become one, Maya. I shall not be lost. Both of us are vital for the ultimate design. Believe in me as I trusted you with my life.
Tidurlah, wahai puteriku. Kitakan berjumpa di alam al-mythal
When I’ve died, Maya? The cynical tones brought a smile to her face
Kematian dan ruh bukan sinonim walaupun di dalam konteks yang sama
Goodnight then, my dearest. We will meet at the place of memories

She is still smiling when the ghost of sleeps touches her; all the voices cease to exist. The dream comes quietly as the sound of the night.

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In the dream, raindrops like tears fall onto the body. Lies on a red stone; altar bed of sacrifice. The dead tree looms over like a death-god with a scythe. As she got up, the waves of the sea broke at her feet, sending shivers piercing her heart with coldness. Coldness and darkness wrap her like an invisible robe on her naked body. When the red moon sinks into the ocean, the song came;

Di bawahnya sinar bulan terang purnama
Air mataku menitis bagaikan embun
Melihat dikau melangkah tinggalkan semua
Ke alam yang baru begitulah jalanan hidupmu


When she opens her eyes, the song is still echoing inside her. The sunlight that woke her from the dream always confusing since it is always forever night in her mind. The room seems unreal; the body is not hers. Finally, it dawns to her to remember the Judas of Lust. To taste the sweet nectar of sinful betrayal left her with nothingness. Nothing happened? She only prayed that the blissful ignorance can last. Nothing is everything. That is the life she is living because ignorance is not only bliss, it is the way to continue living. In her head, there’re voices, murmuring choices. Eyes, blanking stare, a lifeless light shone through from the reflection of the mirror as she gets up. A crying smile, an empty heart, a walking doll, shone in the reflection. No ashes, no dust, only cold revenge; given life by death. Until all is over the eternal sleep shall not come.